What would you do if you suddenly became fatal disease? Please listen the naked experience of a Christian who is a doctor and pastor.
I grew up in a Christian home. My grandfather and father were pastors. I had a dream of becoming a medical missionary since I was a child and fortunately, I married with Michio who also had the same vision.
We were able to serve in eight different countries as a medical missionary for a total of 20 years. It has been 16 years since we returned to Japan.
I started to work at a facility for the elderly in my hometown. We have about 80 clients, where the majority struggle with dementia. At that time my husband I were not aware of Dementia well , so I regret not being able to treat their difficult symptoms properly.
On the second year into working at the facility I experienced sudden heart failure and I was taken to the Cardio-Vascular Center by an emergency helicopter. I was diagnosed with primary pulmonary hypertension which is said to be an incurable disease. This disease is found in one person in a million. The only treatment is to have a Lung transplant. I asked my three sons that lived in the United States to come and see me in Japan so that I could say my last good-byes.
I am a Christian and I have faith in God, but for the first time in my life, God felt so far to me.
I cried out “Is it true that my life is coming to an end at age 60? If it is your plan, I will accept, but … Can you give me 5 more years to live? I will work for you with all my heart.”
My prayer might have been selfish and embarrassing at that time. But it was my honest request and cry to God. Even if I complained a lot, God always listened carefully and answered my prayers in my life. I trusted God.
I was hospitalised for 5 months and I was told my life expectancy was three months. I decided to return home because I did not want to die in the hospital. After I was discharged I was bed ridden for nearly two years. I am taking many experimental new drugs and I use oxygen at night when I sleep, however, God is faithful and stays with me all along.
Gradually my health improved. The doctors say that it is a miracle. It is with thanks to God’s mercy and many people’s prayers that I have recovered. I am sincerely grateful for advancements in medical treatments. I asked God for five years but God added “extra” years. I am living on borrowed time. How can I respond to God’s love?
By the way life can change in an instant. This is especially true with my illness. Back in May during my check up, I found out that this disease has progressed and in fact my blood test in August was the worst thus far. I was to be hospitalised for 3 months beginning in October. I thought my time has come, but I was at peace with God. Miraculously when I had my exams in September prior to hospitalisation, the doctor could not find any problems! Thanks to God!
God has a purpose for everyone and with His love and compassion He will touch our lives.
Even though we live in the world with respect, riches, academic knowledge, talent, technology, pride, beauty, and youth, even our health will surely fail someday.
I believe that anyone who believes in Jesus Christ’s love and salvation by His blood on the cross will be given eternal life. The death of our body is not the end. As long as I live, I would like to share about this message.
Philippians 4:6-7 New Living Translation (NLT)
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. 7 Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.